“The heart of a fool is in his mouth, but the mouth of the wise man is in his heart”
When I read these words, they hit me hard, really hard. I was indeed a fool because when I got the first opportunity, it was my mouth that did all the talking.
It was 31st January, everyone was into weekend vibes when one of my colleagues Sadhvi, called me out, stating that she wanted to talk.
“Why are you confusing me, Shrey?” She asked.
“What are you saying? I said nothing. How am I confusing you? What are you talking about?”
“You are confusing me, you fool !” She shouted like a maniac.
Amazed by her words, I asked, “Really, how?”
“With your feelings.”
“Can you elaborate a little?” I asked laced worth sarcasm.
“You are confusing me with your feelings. One day you make me feel special and other day, you ignore me like a plague. What the hell do you want?” She was filled with anger.
I was speechless. I didn’t know what to say, what was she talking about..
The only thought going on in my mind was,
‘First, she called me a fool and now, she is demanding to know what the hell I want.. Excuse me Woman, Do you know, what you are talking about..’
Fortunately, I didn’t say these words on her face. I calmed myself down and tried my best to calm the situation.
“Look, Sadhvi… I never ignored you intentionally. I don’t want anything. Please, don’t make a scene.”
“Seriously, now, I am making a scene.. Great, you know what, Go to hell !! I don’t care.. Idiot.” With these words Sadhvi left the place. She was fuming like fire.
Initially, I didn’t realize what I did to make her so angry. She ignored my messages and calls for the whole month. Gradually, her absence made me realize a lot of things, like her importance in my life, depth of her words, her feelings and most importantly, it gave me all the answers to her hidden questions. I wanted to talk and make amends but she was neglecting my presence.
It is often said that every moment of your life is a second chance and if you want to work harder, you will get your second chance.
This chance knocked at my door in form of an invitation. It was Sadhvi’s birthday and she invited all the colleagues. This time, like a wise man, I let my heart jumped on the opportunity and decided to confess.
On the day of the party, I was quite nervous and filled with the fear of rejection. Gathering all my strength, I convinced myself to come clean about my feelings. I went to her and asked her to come out for a few moments. She seemed reluctant at first but then, gave in and as soon as we were out of earshot, I decided to spill the beans out.
“I am really sorry Sadhvi. You were right, I am a fool. I shouldn’t have said you all those things. I never wanted to hurt you, you mean so much to me..I.. I.. I missed you, a lot.. I am really, really, very sorry .”
“Hey, it’s okk.. I, too, acted as a fool. I failed to control my feelings and fell in love with you. I didn’t realize that you were just being an amicable fellow. You know what, It was my fault, I read the lines that were never there. ” She said calmly.
“So, have you forgiven me?” I asked her teasingly.
“Do I have a choice?” She joked, “Of course, I have forgiven you.”
“Sadhvi, Thank you.” I was really grateful to her for being so kind and generous.
“For the two reasons. First, thank you for granting your forgiveness and second…”
“Second, what??” She sounded curious.
“Second, for making me realize, what I really want in my life.” I was being honest.
“What are you saying?” She was little confused.
“I have a question for you.”
“Ok, go ahead.”
“You are the reason I smile brightly even in the most hectic schedule. You are not only a colleague or a friend, but you are also the shinning star in my life, you complete me. Your absence made me realize that without you, there’s no meaning to life. I realized the fact that I fell head over heels for you a long time ago. Will you keep embracing my life with your precious presence forever?”
“I love you.” Her words were full of emotions and tears were rolling down her beautiful cheeks.
I was indeed the luckiest man alive to get best friend and love in a single person.
“I love you too.” were the only words I could say.